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Post by Remus John Lupin on Jul 6, 2012 2:42:54 GMT -5
"Then I won't say the word 'no' for the rest of this night," Remus stated simply, ignoring the pain in his nose, thinking that she really packed a punch, "I always felt that these feelings for me was a phase for you, that you'd get over me, but I don't think that's the case." This is exactly what I tried to prevent, these feelings she feels for me, Remus thought to himself. He tried pushing her away to avoid this phase of loving him from sticking. He failed. Obviously. It wasn't going to change anytime soon. But he still didn't want to just give up on everything he'd been trying to prevent.
"I love you," Remus stated, "But in order to protect you, I cannot let you and I be together." And he didn't know any other way to phrase it. He felt that everyone he got close to died, or in Pettigrew's case betrayed him, and if he and Tonks were to get any closer, he was afraid to loose her. This was the best position for the both of them. He could watch over her, but prevent his terrible luck from taking her from him. He didn't care if they never saw each other again, as long as she was still alive and breathing, that was his goal, and if he could, then do whatever it took to make her happy, but that was second on the list.
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Post by Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin on Jul 6, 2012 3:23:36 GMT -5
"If I hear the word no once, I'll make sure that nose won't ever stop bleeding." Tonks said keeping her gaze, at a spot beyond his shoulder, steady. She didn't, wouldn't, look him in the eyes forr fear of crying again. "I don't lie about the way I feel, my mother would kill me if I tried." She said adjusting the way she was sitting. She now had one leg extended and the other one folded underneath it. "Sorry about hitting you so hard its reflex I think..."
"That's something I disagree witth." Tonks said, "you don't have to push yoursellf away, I don't want you too. Its hard enough to be seen as just a jokester, I want to be seen as more than that." She could feel the lump in her throat as she spoke. "I love you more than any thing I own, if I don't have love, then what is there left for me to fight for?"
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Jul 6, 2012 14:54:50 GMT -5
"I deserved it," Remus simply said regarding her apology for hitting him. He thought about what she had said. If I don't have love, then what is there left for me to fight for? Those words rang in his ears, and he was quite speechless for a moment or two thinking about it.
"You just don't understand, do you? I love you more than the world, more than anything else in the entire universe," Remus said trying to avoid the word no, because he didn't like the sound of his nose never healing, "Which is why I am afraid of losing you, I cannot lose you. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if something happened and you were to die."
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Post by Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin on Jul 6, 2012 15:04:48 GMT -5
Tonks took a deep breath calming herself so she wouldn't take another swing at his face. He didn't get that she was willing to take the risk, willing to stare death in the face if she had to.
"I don't care! I'll have a staredown with death and win if I have to. I am not leaving till you understand that!" Tonks said jamming her hands down on the floor again. "Why can't you just let me be happy and be with you? Death chases me every time I go to the Ministry, Umbridge keeps having Kingsly and I questioned because we know-knew Dumbledore. And everytime I go after a Dark Wizard, there's Death, waiting for me to make a mistake. I'm not going anywhere any time soon." Tonks didn't want to leave this world, she loved it and the people in it. Destiny would decide when she died, either that, or You-Know-Who would because Bellatrix probably would end up having her killed.
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Jul 6, 2012 15:13:54 GMT -5
Remus didn't even dodge her the second time, getting it quite hard again. At this rate she would knock him unconscious before the night was over. He hated this. He really did, Tonks angry at him, because he just wanted to protect her. He could only think of one way he could make sure...
"Fine," Remus sighed and paused for a second,"You want to do this then, fine, I give up. However, I have one condition." One condition which could mean the difference between life and death. It was worth it right?
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Post by Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin on Jul 6, 2012 15:21:01 GMT -5
Tonks bit her thumb nail, she must've hit him subcounciously because she really hadn't meant to that time. "Sorry, didn't even realize I swung.." she laughed nervously.
Tonks perked up and smiled, "What's the condition?" She looked more like herself but it wouldn't be till later that her hair would be back to bubble-gum pink.
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Jul 6, 2012 15:28:44 GMT -5
Remus took a deep breathe. This was it right? The ultimatum. "You must promise not to deliberately put yourself in danger. I understand danger is something unavoidable, but if you can, avoid taking the dangerous missions, take up the paperwork instead, or something. Order work fine unless its very dangerous anf there are plenty of others to take the work. If you don't agree and say the opposite of yes to this, then we will never be."
He hoped that this way she wouldnt be in as much danger and the he'd be with her to protect her. He loved when she perked up, because she looked just so pretty. He really loved her alot. And that was the reason why he had pushed her away, because he was a bloody coward.
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Post by Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin on Jul 6, 2012 15:40:34 GMT -5
Tonks kinda slouched, nothing dangerous? Paperwork? Anything and everything right? Right. "Alright, nothing too dangerous." she promised, "But if some thing really good comes up and they need me, I'm going for it." She nodded, "Order stuff fine, I'll cut back on taking some of the jobs."
Tonks stretched, "But you do need to learn to let go a little and enjoy life. It's not always about staying safe, sometimes you have to get out there and face every the world." She smiled and she thought about having longer brown hair that looked a bit less murky. And there it was, light brown hair that touched her shoulders. She smiled, "Taa-daa, I'm able to metamorphasize again!"
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Jul 6, 2012 15:46:02 GMT -5
Remus sighed in relief before examining his nose with his hands, having not ever really healed a nose before. He wiped the blood away and responded. "Thank you," Remus said happily seeing her perk up a lot, and even was able use her metamorphagus powers. She was so beautiful and just overall perfect in all ways. Wouldn't Sirius be happy if he were alive right now?
"I can try at least," Remus said with a small smirk, thinking that he wasn't sure about this letting go thing, "And you're just as pretty as ever."
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Post by Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin on Jul 6, 2012 15:53:50 GMT -5
"Let me get that." Tonks had said talking about his nose. She'd pulled out her wand and said, "Episkey!" to heal it. It worked on Harry's nose at the begining of the year too, and it still worked even though she'd been the one to break his nose. "You know how to clean yourself up, right? Scourgify works a lot better than a sleeve."
"Thank you. Now come on, we've got to go see how Teddy's doing." Tonks said pushing herself up into a standing position. "I wonder if they made it to the Hospital Wing..."
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Jul 7, 2012 0:00:19 GMT -5
"Well I didn't want to pull out my wand while we were talking," Remus said pulling out his wand and cleaning up his face. He watched her steadily, not trying to seem like he was staring. Right now he was starting to feel guilt, fright, and yet happiness at the same time. He placed a kiss on her cheek.
"I bet they did," Remus said standing up as well. "B-before we go, I have one more thing to ask, not a condition, but a request." He took a deep breathe, wondering what he was doing now, "Ton-Dora, I was thinking, if we're going to be together, and we love each other... What I mean to say is, if we're going to do this, I want to be with you for the rest of my life... and um... I haven't prepared this, it's kinda off the top of my head... But anyways... What I mean to ask, is... Will you marry me?" He sounded like such an idiot, and it was so short of a time from when he conceded, yet he felt that if they were going to do this, he didn't want to loose her, and making it official would help let him, try what she said right? Enjoy life, let go a little, and was this the sort of thing she meant, jump in all rash like and not think it through.
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Post by Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin on Jul 7, 2012 4:34:21 GMT -5
Tonks smiled when he'd kissed her cheek. Her cheeks flushed pink and as she'd started to leave, she stopped and tured around. His words echoed in her head, Will you marry me. She covered her mouth and nodded, so what if they didn't have a ring? He'd asked her to marry him and that was all she needed. She gripped him tight in a hug, "Yes, yes a million times yes!" She said. She didn't know what else to say, yes was the only thing that came to mind.
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Jul 7, 2012 15:11:08 GMT -5
When he heard her 'yes' he almost sighed in relief of his nervousness. He hugged her back and smiled widely, thinking of what exactly James and Sirius would be saying at this moment up in heaven. They would probably be extremely happy, that he finally had decided to settle down with someone. He loved the hug, the warmth of her in his arms, and he was quite happy, and the happiness outweighed his guilt and worry by a lot.
"I do love you, truly and forever," Remus said looking back at his Nymphadora Tonks, before softly kissing her for only a second before releasing the hug, "We better check on the others."
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Post by Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin on Jul 7, 2012 19:38:35 GMT -5
Tonks smiled and held his hand, she felt like she was back in school. Her wand in her back pocket of her jeans, she started to leave the Library picking her lip. Her mother might not be happy at who she was marrying, but she would be happy that her little girl was finally getting married.
"Didn't what happened to Teddy, happen to Ron at the Ministry last year?" Tonks asked, she was sure that it was.
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Jul 7, 2012 19:44:17 GMT -5
Remus' heart was pounding right now, as his happiness mixed with nervousness and the slightest amount of guilt. Was he really going to get married? Well, he hoped he would, because he kinda just proposed and she accepted. He wasn't sure what exactly he was feeling, but he knew that the feeling wasn't bad.
"I don't know... he sure was acting a lot like Ron was last year," Remus said thinking about everything that had occurred that evening, smiling when his thoughts went to Sirius, as his face was full of memories of their school years and when Harry had run after Bellatrix he was reminded of James and how he would act a lot like that if James had seen someone kill Sirius.
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