To: Nymphadora Tonks __ From: Remus Lupin

[Remus John Lupin]

Dear Tonks,

I don't even know what I'm doing right now, but I've decided that I have to do something. I don't know if you will read this letter, or just throw it in the fire as soon as you see who it is from, but it is at least worth the try.

Where to begin? I want to apologize for what I've said in the past. I want you to know that various illegible words are scribbled out. I'm sorry for making you feel bad, or upset, truly and honestly. I've been an idiot for the past... well for a very long time. I know you don't care about how old I am, how poor I am, and how dangerous I am. I must stress that these things are important to me, but I will try to look past it.

The other day, yes this pertains to what I was saying prior to this, I met a curious young girl, a distant cousin of mine, who finally talked me into writing this letter to you. Her name was Sophie, and she told me about her brother Teddy, who went through something similar, though he wasn't a, you-know-what, as I am. Please, I want you to no longer be upset with me, I know I've been an idiot... I think it's about time I tell you for a second time more scribbled out writing to the point one can't read it, you are the guiding source of life for me, every time I think of the pain I cause to you, it breaks my heart into pieces. I am sorry about everything I've done. I lo I hope that you may forgive me at some point in the future, whether it be today or in 75 years. I lov

If you have read this entire letter, know I do not expect you to reply, or even have read this. To heck with it... I love you Nymphadora Tonks.

Sincerely,
RJL

[Remus John Lupin]

Dear Nymphadora Tonks,

I do not see why you are so stubborn with this. Why can't you just forget about me? I understand that now you say that you don't care about what I am, but you are still young and whole. I want to protect you, in the future you might care about what I am, since I can't give you any kids, and I would put you in so much danger each month. I understand you say that you don't care, I know you are constantly in danger, but with me it is adding even more danger, unnecessary danger.

Tonks, you know how I feel, and you should understand why I insist on this. It is because I care about your safety, and if I were to do anything to hurt you because of my condition, I would never forgive myself. I must say no, as a protection not only to you, but for me. I grew up knowing I would end up alone, and then you came into my life.

I owe you so much, because you let me feel love for once in my life, and that's one thing James and Sirius could never make me feel, at least how you make me feel. But I can't do anything, or it would be deliberately putting you in danger, and I do not want to do this. I wouldn't be able to handle it. I love you enough to say no, I love you enough to not act upon it, and I love you so much that... that I must let you go.

Sincerely,
Remus John Lupin