Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin
Ministry Worker
Auror Metamorphagus Order of the Phoenix
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Post by Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin on Dec 10, 2011 4:14:44 GMT -5
Tonks rolled over to face the opposite way, which was the way in which she was refusing to face, the way toward Remus. She didn't know what to say when he asked if she was awake so she sat up in her bed. Now that she was warmer and didn't have to worry about freezing, she walked over to the small stove.
She looked around at the spices he'd used and shook her head, still being quiet as he looked at the fire. 'Okay you never mix this many, there is a specific way to do this. Great, I sound like my mother...' she thought rolling her eyes.
She reached in the fridge and pulled out a serloin, put it in the pan and let it cook. She added only specific amounts of certain spices. After cooking it only for a bit shorter than she'd heard the first steak cooked, she figured it had to have been done by then. She got out a plate and dropped it on the floor stepping back a bit and fixing it as fast as she could, almost dropping her wand in the process.
After fixing the plate, she put the steak on it and put the plate on the table next to the couch. She wasn't the best cook, but she did pretty good when she needed to. The only issue she had was dropping things and running into things. She started to head back to her bed when she kicked the couch. She sat behind it massaging her toe that hit the couch.
Then she said, "Yes... I'm up, and your never cooking again unless Molly or Arthur are watching you.."
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Dec 10, 2011 21:24:32 GMT -5
Remus looked over to where Tonks had gotten up, then returning to his monotonous stare at the fire. He heard her drop her plate and a grin flew into his face, which stayed there, up until she actually headed towards her bed again, and probably would be able to see him again. He kept his face straight while she was in his vision of sight, and when she wasn't, well he didn't smile again, feeling terrible for everything, but determined to keep his side on everything.
Remus looked towards her when she had kicked the couch nearby. Remus sighed but didn't really say anything about it. Remus looked away from her quickly and soon spoke after her comment on his cooking.
"I never said I was a good cook, and I know I'm terrible at it anyways," Remus commented back, "Did you seriously hurt your foot? We could always try healing it if it's bad." He didn't want any lasting damage or hurt all the way to their destination, which was the complete bottom of the Earth, though Remus wasn't sure if anything would be there. He was almost to the point he would accept the post underground with other werewolves, but he wasn't yet sure.
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Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin
Ministry Worker
Auror Metamorphagus Order of the Phoenix
You ain't got the right to tell me when and where to go
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Post by Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin on Dec 10, 2011 21:56:24 GMT -5
Tonks leaned back and slouched on the back of the couch. Merlin, had he always sounded that concerned? No, that was new, very new. Either way, Tonks was holding one of her knees while the other stayed on the ground as he spoke. She shook her head with one hand on her forehead. She wanted to just say that he should just eat his steak, but she couldn't do that it was just too mean.
Tonks stood testing the weight on her foot, it didn't hurt that bad but it still hurt slightly. She looked at the back of his head and shook her head again, she was being foolish. She shouldn't even attempt to do anything that would be considered stupid.
"I'm fine.. just a bruise." Tonks said, "And since when are you concerned huh? Thought you didn't like me..
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Dec 10, 2011 22:04:37 GMT -5
Ouch. That stung a bit, but Remus kept his composure. It wasn't that he didn't like her, but for so many reasons he kept running through his head. He wasn't going to repeat them for the, what millionth time now? He just kept his head level and didn't look at Tonks in the eyes, keeping his eyes focused on the fire.
"I never said I didn't like you, I merely stated I could not act on your feelings, because of various reasons," Remus stated, which would probably anger her or make her mad at him again. It wasn't that he didn't feel the same way, but because he felt strong about her that he couldn't do anything without hurting himself, because it would put her in danger.
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Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin
Ministry Worker
Auror Metamorphagus Order of the Phoenix
You ain't got the right to tell me when and where to go
Posts: 309
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Post by Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin on Dec 10, 2011 22:24:40 GMT -5
Tonks tried to recount that in her head, so she was smart but she didn't get things sometimes which made things much harder when your smart. Although, she didn't care, she had always been insane, annoying, and a bit off sometimes but hey! That was her!!
"Various reasons being that your too old, dangerous, and poor?" Tonks crossed her arms and raised her eye brows even if he couldn't see it, "I've told you time and time again.. I. Don't. Care. My mother is mad at me for my choice but I don't care..."
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Dec 10, 2011 22:32:41 GMT -5
And there is was. He had heard this before the last time they 'talked' about it. Remus simply kept himself calm, as not to anger himself, and have the rest of the trip become terribly awkward... well more awkward than it already was. He sighed and turned in his chair to look at her. The mousy color which wasn't too flattering on her, and he wished she would just be the bubblegum pink girl once more. But if that meant putting her in danger, then he'd live with the mousy hair.
"And you don't get that I care a lot about all of it? I know you are strong, and can try to keep yourself safe, but I don't trust myself around you. I don't want to hurt you, physically or emotionally, it's not a silly love game like at Hogwarts with the young couples. I was in my third year at Hogwarts when you were born," Remus explained quickly, his control over his temper slightly weakening, which caused him to turn away, not wanting it to be worse than it already was.
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Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin
Ministry Worker
Auror Metamorphagus Order of the Phoenix
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Post by Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin on Dec 10, 2011 22:45:37 GMT -5
Tonks kept her gaze at Lupin, she wasn't going to break eye contact. Attempting it, she made her eyes look like a cats, so it made her look really creepy with the mousey hair... She didn't want to scream or cry or not be strong and she did. Her breathing was uneven from her heart racing, but that always happened when he looked at her, so it wasn't new.
"Your point being? Age doesn't matter, nothing matters. You know how I feel and you just don't want to hurt me I get that, but I don't care if I get hurt!" Tonks looked directly at him, she wasn't going to break the gaze for anything.
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Dec 10, 2011 22:52:43 GMT -5
Remus took a deep breathe in. That wasn't it at all. He had strong feelings for her and he didn't want to admit it. She would be the first person he ever felt like this for ever. He didn't want her hurt. Remus trusted her to protect herself, but it was so hard to protect himself from her. He didn't mean it like what she thought, not at all.
"No, it's not that," Remus replied watching her since she was so bent on keeping eye contact, "I don't hate you, I don't dislike you, but I won't let someone that I... that is a friend get hurt because I wasn't able to prevent it beforehand." She just didn't get it. Maybe it was because she was too immature and young to handle it, but Remus didn't really care about her age, only using it as an excuse.
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Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin
Ministry Worker
Auror Metamorphagus Order of the Phoenix
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Post by Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin on Dec 10, 2011 23:05:18 GMT -5
Tonks' breathing made it sound like she would cry but shook her head to stop it, Why was she crying? He hadn't said anything to hurt her and she just wanted to cry at that moment, just let it all out and hide. But she couldn't do that, no, she had to keep herself there, she needed the real reason.
Then she heard it, a slight moment where he retracted his words and said something else. There was something missing in that line and she had to know what it was but she wasn't that mean, was she?
"Wait, you paused for a moment, what were you going to say? I won't yell, I promise, just would you tell me?" Tonks tried to grin, but hse highly doubted that it would work. Ah well.. It was worth a shot right?
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Dec 10, 2011 23:10:26 GMT -5
Well Remus considered it for a moment. Revealling such a personal not might make her see what he was meaning, but at the same time complicate things. He stared into her eyes, and couldn't help but think the word in his head, though wouldn't say aloud right?
"Nothing. It's not important," Remus quickly answered, most likely arousing suspicions. How could he not tell her the truth? Her amazing personality and body. It was all intoxicating, except for the mousy brown hair. Remus didn't want things to become more complicated between them, and he was sure he should stay on this path of determination.
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Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin
Ministry Worker
Auror Metamorphagus Order of the Phoenix
You ain't got the right to tell me when and where to go
Posts: 309
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Post by Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin on Dec 10, 2011 23:46:34 GMT -5
Tonks' breathing was worse. Just by the way it sounded, you could tell she was going to cry. She jumped over the back of the couch, clipping her hip on the way. If she was going to cry she was going to into a pillow.
After the first few tears hit the pillow, she put her face it it muffeling her voice, "It's okay if you don't want to tell me.. I just figured I try since...since.." she couldn't finish her sentece her tears were drenching the pillow where her eyes were. 'Great.. The ever strong auror is crying for the billionth time..' she thought.
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Dec 10, 2011 23:52:08 GMT -5
Wow that made him feel like a horrible person. Remus broke his little shield he was putting up, and stood up, walking over to where she was laying. He crouched down so his head was around where her head was buried in the pillow.
"If you really want to know, I was going to say someone I was..." he hesistated before saying the one word that came to his head so many times but he insisted it couldn't be true, "In love with." He had said it. He had done it. It would become so complicated now. But he couldn't just let her cry by herself, wondering what he could mean, sad about rejection, sad because he caused it. He was mad the last talk they had, so he didn't really pay attention to her feelings at that moment, but he was calm now, and collected.
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Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin
Ministry Worker
Auror Metamorphagus Order of the Phoenix
You ain't got the right to tell me when and where to go
Posts: 309
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Post by Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin on Dec 11, 2011 0:38:38 GMT -5
Tonks' eyes went wide on the pillow. She was in shock, so much shock that she couldn't speak. She sat up and her hair started to regain a pink-ish tinge to it. Her mind was empty, her heart was leaping and she couldn't think clearly at all. Any sentece she would've put together would've sounded like gibberish.
She wanted to say thank you and that he'd have to help her act around Molly and Arthur. Which would've meant avoiding each other, and taking different missions when Dumbledore said he needed people for one. She was still in shock though and her hair was still getting more vibrant in the sclience. A smile crept it's way to Tonks' face and she hid her face in the pillow again hiding her redness. Now she was happy, and embarrassed about not saying anything.
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Dec 11, 2011 17:34:58 GMT -5
Remus looked at her once more, before he looked away just for a second. What in the world was he thinking telling her information like that? Remus simply kept yelling at himself inside his head about how stupid he was. Such an idiot. But on the outside he was calm, breathing deeply and slowly. Hopefully it would help her understand why.
"Do you understand now? Why I can't do anything. You may call me a coward, because in this respect I am. I don't want anything to happen where I loose your presence forever," Remus said quietly. Normally he wasn't such a coward, normally he was extremely brave. He could fight Voldemort and show not much fear, but he couldn'tbare the fact that he might loose one he loved if he did something like that.
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Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin
Ministry Worker
Auror Metamorphagus Order of the Phoenix
You ain't got the right to tell me when and where to go
Posts: 309
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Post by Nymphadora "Tonks" Lupin on Dec 11, 2011 17:46:46 GMT -5
Tonks nodded on the pillow and she made her hair mousey again, after it had gone all the way back to pink she was too embarrassed to have it that color for a while so she changed it again. Wasn't she lucky to have hair that showed her emotions? Yeah right.
Tonks said with her head still in the pillow, "I understand... I guess I'm going to have to think about something sad for a while to keep my hair this color.."
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