Sophie Marietta Lupin
Adult
Unemployed Order of the Phoenix German Shepard Animagus
We'll never fall; we'll never fade. I promise you forever and my soul today.
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Post by Sophie Marietta Lupin on Jan 8, 2012 5:38:58 GMT -5
Sophie had heard about this friend. It was Sirius Black, Harry Potter's godfather. Her godfather's godfather, did that make Sirius her great uncle? She didn't know. She didn't even know what to say when they'd been told about the Marauders, she'd been speechless the whole time.
"I became one when I was fifteen, Teddy kept saying I needed something to make me seem stronger. So, I decided that I'd be an Animagus. He's a metamorphagus and is really special, I was just there.." she raised her eyebrows, "This friend of yours, was it Sirius Black?"
She had to sound at least a little confused, right?
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Jan 8, 2012 5:45:07 GMT -5
She guessed it quite correct. Sirius Black was indeed the friend he was referring to. For some reason he felt a sense of trust in her, even if he just met her. Almost like she was an old friend, or sibling, or even child like.
"I don't think you needed anything to make your self seem stronger, you are only as strong as you let yourself to believe," Remus stated leaving his glass on the bar in front of him, still half full. This girl was interesting, and took his mind off of You-Know-Who and he didn't mean Voldemort.
"That would be him," Remus replied, "The two of us were great friends, along with James Potter and..." Lupin almost spat at saying the name, "Peter Pettigrew. All of us were animals." He didn't state if it was animagus or not so he was still telling the truth.
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Sophie Marietta Lupin
Adult
Unemployed Order of the Phoenix German Shepard Animagus
We'll never fall; we'll never fade. I promise you forever and my soul today.
Posts: 219
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Post by Sophie Marietta Lupin on Jan 8, 2012 5:59:23 GMT -5
Sophie looked at him blankly, she usually looked to others for protection. Teddy was the first person who had actually cared for her, she looked up to him like a child would to a TV star.
"I'm rather weak.. I never knew that if I let people get away with hitting me I would have to go to the priciple to talk about it. Watching the dogs run around at the station, training to be the best police dog they could be, I wanted that, I wanted to be the best and be Teddy's best friend when he needed one." she said, her eyes lit with a reminicient glow.
"Judging by the marks on your face, you're a dog of the full moon." Sophie said, she didn't want to say the actuall term, "I was told by family about the Marauders, I thought that it was amazing because you guys actually banded together and made the name for yourself."
She sipped her water again, it was still pretty full. She'd walked some distance but she hadn't gotten hungry or thirsty the whole time, and she really needed food to keep her weight healthy. Sophie shrunk down on her seat, she felt she'd said almost too much.
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Jan 8, 2012 6:06:01 GMT -5
"If you believe you are something, then in reality you are, no matter how much you try to change it. If you believe you are strong, you are strong. But I do understand what you mean. It's nice to feel like you are useful and accepted," Remus replied seeing more of himself in her. He didn't want to see it, because he felt he was just a silly old man with no use.
When she talked about him being a... dog of the full moon, he took a deep breathe in wondering how she knew, though his scars were evidence. "We we pretty much just James and Sirius, but then they saw me and wanted to make me a friend, so after a good long wait to them, we were finally friends. The days back then were great. They were great. It was a good time." A time when he was loved and surrounded by friends.
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Sophie Marietta Lupin
Adult
Unemployed Order of the Phoenix German Shepard Animagus
We'll never fall; we'll never fade. I promise you forever and my soul today.
Posts: 219
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Post by Sophie Marietta Lupin on Jan 8, 2012 6:16:43 GMT -5
"I bet you'd be a great mentor to a child if you tried.." Sophie said realizing too late what she'd said, she keept speaking to cover it up, "But I'm just a silly girl witht do I know? Fresh out of school with no job and still relying on her brother. Eh heh heh.."
"I bet your days could be good again if you had someone to help you.." she said, why did she keep doing that, "Isn't there someone special you'd want to be with? I bet she feels the same way but is too heart broken to talk to you at the moment.."
Shut up Soph.. just shut up and drink your water.. she thought taking more sips of her water.
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Jan 8, 2012 6:29:13 GMT -5
"Heh, yeah right. Me a good mentor to a child? I mean Harry liked me, but he's the only one who seemed to look up to me," Lupin replied shaking his head. Him a good mentor? That would be a good thing, and something Remus wanted, but he knew it probably wouldn't ever happen.
"There is someone special to me, so special, that it hurts..." Remus replied looking down thinking to himself about everything to do with Tonks, their first meeting, the day he rejected her, the way she scrunched her face to change her face was so cute, but yet he was too old, poor, and dangerous for her, "I only... break her heart to protect it from more hurt down the road." Remus sighed thinking of her, being so caught up in thinking about Tonks not to worry that she shouldn't know that.
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Sophie Marietta Lupin
Adult
Unemployed Order of the Phoenix German Shepard Animagus
We'll never fall; we'll never fade. I promise you forever and my soul today.
Posts: 219
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Post by Sophie Marietta Lupin on Jan 8, 2012 6:39:20 GMT -5
"The rest of the family kids look up to you, Teddy and I do too.. You're like our hero.." Sophie said almost inaudible, "We all look up to the one who had the courage to go outside and find his students on the night of the full moon.." She was really telling the truth, whenever Harry told them about their parents Sophie was all ears and ready to listen.
"You shouldn't hurt her as much.. You should tell her the truth and let her know that it's how you really feel.. Even if it takes months in front of a mirrior, you should tell her.." Sophie said, she'd had the same kind of conversation with her brother many times, "Did it ever occur that she might not care if theres more hurt down the road? Maybe she just wants to know theres some one who cares about her more than her friends and parents do.."
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Jan 8, 2012 6:53:01 GMT -5
"How do you know about that?" Remus said suddenly realizing not too many people knew about that. He was simply going after his best friend's son and his best friend. He didn't view it as bravery, more like stupidity.
"I don't want to, but I don't know what else to do. I've already told her that I love her..." Remus replied keeping his head down thinking about how much he had hurt Tonks, "It has occurred to me, but I care if there is more hurt down the road, I care if somehow I hurt her. Every step knowing that she's hurt is like sticking a knife in my heart, but I can't do anything else. It would be selfish to give in."
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Sophie Marietta Lupin
Adult
Unemployed Order of the Phoenix German Shepard Animagus
We'll never fall; we'll never fade. I promise you forever and my soul today.
Posts: 219
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Post by Sophie Marietta Lupin on Jan 8, 2012 7:06:00 GMT -5
"We're everywhere cousin.. We're like ninja's almost.." Sophie almost had a full smile on her face, "Besides, a pensive is a great contraption.. all of us went in.." That was a lie, almost comepletly, they'd been told about it by Harry. He'd told them almost everything that involved their parents.
"But you would feel better if you weren't trying to tell yourself that you'd hurt her. The same thing has happened five times with my brother, I've told him to go back and talk to her again and just stay by her no matter what. But it's not like it's rare to see a male member of the family freaking out about relationships.. it's quite common actually." Sophie said serenly, "What if she thought she was dreaming when you told her you loved her? She might just not want to speak to you becaue she thinks she was dreaming. Cousin.. you care more about her than you think don't you? You don't want to hurt her because you've lost both of your best friends? You think that everyone you get close to, or love, gets ripped away from you by a painfully sharp knife?"
Sophie put her hand delacaitly on his shoulder, the mans best friend coming through, she loved being able to be there for others. It was one of the things she was pretty good at.
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Jan 8, 2012 13:04:33 GMT -5
"Pensieve eh? Well I guess that makes sense... Why do you care about me so much? I mean just because we have blood and DNA similarities, doesn't mean you have to care," Remus replied thinking of the several people who didn't care about their families, mostly because their families were messed up, such as Sirius and Tonks.
"But I know that I will hurt her, or cause hurt to her," Remus replied looking back up at her, before looking down once more, "I guess it's something with us Lupin men... Your brother, he sounds like a nice fellow... I don't know, right now I dunno if I can face her." Remus thought about it for a second looking up for a second more... she seemed like a great woman, and for some reason kept making him think of Sirius and how Sirius would advise him, though Sirius would probably add so many jokes the advice is disguised a lot more. A crack on several girls who tried to get with Remus before, though he refused, especially since Sirius and James set him up for blind dates on more than one occasion. "It's true. Think about it, everyone I cared about in school is either dead or a traitor. If everyone you loved was ripped away, your brother, your parents, you friends, you may understand what I mean."
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Sophie Marietta Lupin
Adult
Unemployed Order of the Phoenix German Shepard Animagus
We'll never fall; we'll never fade. I promise you forever and my soul today.
Posts: 219
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Post by Sophie Marietta Lupin on Jan 8, 2012 18:23:33 GMT -5
"I care because I'm alone too, if I didn't have my brother I might not be sitting here talking to you. I almost died when I was five because I wouldn't eat, I couldn't eat." Sophie explained, "I care because if I didn't you'd have no one to talk to anymore.."
"Maybe she feels alone, too, maybe she needs someone that will make her feel less alone." Sophie smiled lightly, "Even if you cause her pain, I'm sure she'd be happy either way. It'd make her feel better, and I'm sure she'd forgive you.. Those that got ripped away are still with you though, and you still have Harry, Ron, Herminoe and Teddy and I. And we're all ust kids compared to you, you don't want to put all your trust in us kids do you?"
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Jan 8, 2012 19:55:44 GMT -5
"I still have the Order to talk to, Mad-Eye, Kingsley," Remus replied then quieting up since he shouldn't be saying the names of the Order members aloud. If he remembered correctly, Teddy was a member of the Order as well, and this girl before him.
"I-I guess... I just don't feel I deserve her, and she deserves better. Even if she felt alone it's better than loving and loosing, I know how loss feels, it's defined him whole life. I've loved and lost many previous times, I don't know if I could take it again," Remus replied then a small smile sprouted, then faded quickly as trying to surpress his wand to laugh, "That's true, all you kids are very irresponsible, only thing is that Tonks is about your age, 3 or so years older, I assume you are around 21 years old yes?" And he was 37, 13 years older than her. Remus didn't really actually care about that.
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Sophie Marietta Lupin
Adult
Unemployed Order of the Phoenix German Shepard Animagus
We'll never fall; we'll never fade. I promise you forever and my soul today.
Posts: 219
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Post by Sophie Marietta Lupin on Jan 8, 2012 20:07:48 GMT -5
"What if they have to go into hiding and can't talk to you? Who would you talk to then?" Sophie always had a light sounding voice but it carried well when she wanted it to, "They might now aways be there when you need them.."
"But sometimes the better choice can be the wrong choice. The worse choice could be the right choice, even if it goes against what others want and say.." she said, "I'm going to hazard a guess that she's older than me by that. Yes, but I'm almost twenty two.. I turn twenty two in March.. You really shouldn't take age as a factor into why you won't be with someone, I know a few people who are many years older than those they love.." That was partially a lie, the only people she knew that were several years older than their spouse was her parents but she did know it was them so it was still the truth right?
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Post by Remus John Lupin on Jan 8, 2012 20:39:19 GMT -5
"Just like everyone else. You might have to actually go into hiding as well. But if you want, I guess we might hide out in the same place, if I'm not with others like me," Remus replied with a smile. He was used to being alone, and would be just fine if he had no one to talk to. He was used to it.
"I guess so... and I don't really actually care about age, it's just an excuse I use to push her away," Remus replied truthfully feeling like he was talking to a therapist, "I just... am afraid I guess of what I could have, and then loose it. It always has happened to me that way. I think I'm safe from anymore hurt and boom, more comes."
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Sophie Marietta Lupin
Adult
Unemployed Order of the Phoenix German Shepard Animagus
We'll never fall; we'll never fade. I promise you forever and my soul today.
Posts: 219
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Post by Sophie Marietta Lupin on Jan 8, 2012 20:58:52 GMT -5
"I'm sure Teddy would be happy, it jusst means I have to cook more food and be ready for anything." Sophie smiled, "I'd be glad too, it'll be just like eating with family.."
"Well you shouldn't push her away, that lonely road.. get's lonelier and lonelier.. I've felt that too but I found a friend. I got off that road." Sophie smiled brighter, "After that things got better.."
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